Employee cancer support

Back in 1998, when I was 28 and working in the underwriting team at Zurich Insurance, I was diagnosed with a rare form of ovarian cancer. This was obviously a massive shock, but luckily it was caught quite early and I underwent surgery removing the tumour and one ovary.

I was off work recovering from surgery for six weeks and returned after that feeling fine and excited to be back. But very quickly I started to feel a lot of pain and my manager suggested I go home again. I was then signed off for a further two weeks. This time, I took it more easy, and got back into the usual swing of things.

Five years of scans and blood tests later and I was given the ‘all clear’. I started to feel normal again – it was time to relax and get on with life.

But then in 2010 I felt unwell again and went back in for more scans. At first I thought it was an infection, but they found a tumour from my remaining ovary to my breast bone which had killed one kidney and part of my bowel. I was admitted to the Royal Marsden Hospital in London where I had two big operations to remove the tumour, one kidney, part of my bowel and a full hysterectomy (which at the age of 40 was a big shock). I was told the cancer was successfully removed and, again, felt relief as normal life resumed. I’d been away from work for about four months, and went back to the office in a gradual way as soon as I could. Hey, I had lost weight too – and there’s no harm in showing off!

Confidence and support

I wasn’t expecting things to be exactly as they were before but, after a few days, I was struggling with tiredness and pain and had to slow down a bit. It’s a tricky situation to be in because your mind and professional desire to do a good job has to balance with what your body is telling you. I’d now survived two bouts of cancer and wanted to get back to my job, and not being able to do that had a big impact on my confidence. I had to work out what my own ‘normal’ was going to be, and this threw me.

It’s at this point where the support I got from my manager and team was so important. I was never made to feel that I wasn’t pulling my weight (well, I’d lost some) and always made to feel that I was in charge of how I handled returning to work.

Twelve months passed and, although the cancer was always on my mind, I was back at work full-time and doing really well. But then the big shock… it was back and growing again.

I started treatment straight away. The tablets I was prescribed were similar to chemotherapy, but without the hair loss or sickness, though they did cause bone pain and fatigue. I felt about 100 years old! While they didn’t clear the cancer, they did hold it steady for about two years.

It was now 13 years on from my first diagnosis and it was tough. I needed all the help and support I could get – with my health, at home, and of course at work. I didn’t want to stop working because I liked the continuity of work. I like my job and wanted to keep doing it but needed help to continue.

It’s at this point that my manager and I spoke to HR, who allocated me a dedicated person who I could talk to about my disease, treatment and any work issues whenever I needed. This person gave me an outlet, someone to talk to about cancer versus work. They made my time at work much more positive and helped me feel more in control.

More treatment

The treatment worked, and I set out once again to regain some normality. But this time back at work I found it so much harder to concentrate, and I was encouraged to stop for a while and get some counselling, which I did. Again my manager and HR were a crucial part of the solution, and we agreed that I could work part-time (whilst also covered by sick pay).

I wanted to know about death in service benefits and, with relief, learned that this was unaffected by sick pay cover. This allowed me time to rest but also to attend counselling and an external support group. All of this made a huge difference and I began focusing again on that ever-elusive ‘normal’.

More than a year later though, in 2015, the cancer was back – and this time in my right lung. It was incurable. I changed drugs to something even stronger, but then the side effects were worse too. More bone pain and more fatigue.

To this day the treatment is keeping the cancer steady but with five tumours in my lung, issues like depression, pain and fatigue still linger. I have good and bad days but draw a huge amount of strength from family, friends and colleagues.

The power of support

In the last couple of years something through my journey made me want to do something else for anyone dealing with the impact of a cancer diagnosis. In a large company like Zurich, others will be working while dealing with cancer in some way, and this inspired me to set up an office support group – somewhere people could be with others going through similar experiences, and share their thoughts and feelings, get information and learn from one another.

Anyone who has to deal with the effects of cancer in their lives is welcome, whether with their own diagnosis or cure, but also to those who may have family or friends with the disease. Our time at work is such an integral part of our lives that it’s important to have support away from our usual network. The cancer support group is always on hand to lend support. Sometimes it’s more involved, and sometimes just a chat.

I’ve talked about being ‘normal’ quite a lot – but over the years since my first diagnosis I’ve learnt that there’s no such thing. You need to find your own normal, but also acknowledge that this will change over time. Let it change, don’t try and fight it. You’ve got enough to fight anyway.

But most importantly, never be afraid to ask for help and support. Every time I have, it’s been there for me by the bucket load.

Where else is support available?

There are a number of information and support hubs for those affected in some way by cancer – both online and in-person. For example, Macmillan provides a dedicated mobile team of highly-qualified professionals who travel across the UK on a fleet of six big green Macmillan buses! For more information, visit their website at www.macmillan.org.uk.